Ever since Spirit told me I was growing his and Max's little brother or sister in my belly we have been on a whirlwind. Up until now, It has felt like when one storm settled, another one rolled in right behind it. Since I didn't have time for much else besides tending to Max, teaching, … Continue reading Sickness, Sadness and Sweetness.. my first trimester
Author: cmoneymagness
Rainbows with messages
In my last post, I eluded to a message that Spirit B gave me in the middle of the Patagonian Race while looking out at the biggest, brightest and longest lasting rainbow I had ever witnessed. As we weaved up and down little valleys and across turbal, he was following us and saying: "Mama, this … Continue reading Rainbows with messages
Testing my limits and going past them in the Patagonian Expedition Race

It’s hard to believe it’s already been almost two weeks since we crossed the finish line of the Patagonian Expedition Race in first place. Ever since we did the race back in 2010, it has been an event and place that has shaped my soul, my relationships and my connection to nature. In 2010, Jason … Continue reading Testing my limits and going past them in the Patagonian Expedition Race
Mama Guilt

Mama guilt is a real thing. I wonder if any mother gets away from it. If I am not careful it can grip me so hard it stops me in my tracks and makes it difficult to breath. It is through meditation and inviting it in to my heart space, that I have been able to … Continue reading Mama Guilt
Swarm of Lady bugs
As the wheels drop down from the airplane and we begin our descent into Bend, I look over at Jason and Max looking out the window. They are waving to Spirit and telling him that we are home. Max says "home, home, home" over and over it again and if you didn't know his … Continue reading Swarm of Lady bugs
Telluride 100: Trusting the Process

"2 minutes" The announcer calls over the intercom. I kiss my vial of Spirit B and put him safely in my pack, take a swig of water and head down to the start line of the Telluride 100 mtn bike race. My nervous jitters are finally starting to fade the closer I get to start … Continue reading Telluride 100: Trusting the Process
“My Short”

For the past couple of weeks I have been digging deep. I have been going places that make me catch my breath and makes my heart skip a beat. I have been looking at photos of my pregnancy, the day I met the hawk, and pictures of Max and Spirit B inside and outside of … Continue reading “My Short”
A message from B
This morning, I woke up to a message from Spirit B. I love you. Hi Mama, I have a few things that I want you to know today. Things that I hope you will remember everyday. I am happy that you find me in the Hawk. That you hear my whisper in the wind, … Continue reading A message from B
A Mothers Day Gift
Mothers Day - Ever since being pregnant and having Max and Spirit B, this day has become increasingly important to me. It is a day to honor all of the grandmothers and mothers before me and give love to myself for all that I have done thus far for my boys. Mothers cross a threshold … Continue reading A Mothers Day Gift
Unexpected Fairy tale and Unforeseen Gifts

27 miles, 5 adventure buddies, 2 water falls and one spirit boy: Last time we tried to run the North Fork of the Crooked river I was 4 or 5 months pregnant with Magnus and Spirit B. I ended up turning around due to low water conditions, and my pregnant self was not into an … Continue reading Unexpected Fairy tale and Unforeseen Gifts